1."I also have the right not to be harrassed with unwanted hate messages on my voicemail, which was exactly what happened the night before Caitlyn's latest post went up. I am sorry Caitlyn feels the need to vent her anger with the world on me, but I have the satisfaction of knowing that I've never done anything to her to intentionally hurt her."
I never sent you hate mail Courtney. I merely left a message for you since you were not in your room. I left a message asking if we could discuss this since you obviously have this huge problem with me but have been unwilling to talk to me about it thus far. Then when I specifically asked you to call me back at my dad's office, you sent me a voice-mail acting like nothing was wrong at all. I am sorry if your misrepresentation of me on the DA at an earlier time had irritated me and that may be what you heard in my message. I have no anger for the world and if I did, I would probably vent it on someone else- probably Paul, unfortuantely for him;). I feel that the things you have said about me on the DA are far more hateful than anything I said to you in my message. And for your satisfaction, I have never done anything to intentionally hurt *you*. If you think otherwise, why haven't you ever come to me? I don't bite, at least not normally;).
2. "... and for a while at the beginning of the school year I even tried to be her friend, although that eventually proved to be impossible. I do feel bad for Caitlyn, because she is obviously a very unhappy person. Madeline and I have talked about this situation a little, and we have decided that all we can really do is pray for her."
I am not sure what I did to make you think that it was virtually impossible to be friends. Again, why not just say something to me? It seems that coming directly to me would be so much easier. I never knew you did not consider me a friend. I wonder how that could be? Sorry that was sarcastic. It has been my opinion that you had no problem with me so obviously you have been acting like everything is fine even though you dislike me. Why put that much effort into things? It is not easier to show your true feelings? I am sorry you feel that I am "obvoiusly a very unhappy person", I think this shows how little you know about me. If you are equating being sad with being an unhappy person, then you are probably right. I am sad about things- I am sad that I haven't gotten accepted at a med school, I am sad that I will have to live with my parents next year, I am sad that my roommate is having such a hard time recently, I am sad that I will be sort of far from Paul next year and only be able to see him on weekends, and I am sad that my relationship with my little is not on the level that I would have hoped. But am I an unhappy person? I don't think so. I love my roommate and Paul and I have great frineds like Chip and many others for support. I am content but sadden by some things. As for praying for me, I am a little insulted by this. I could take this two ways, one that you are thinking about me, and two that you feel so morally superior to me and want to make yourself look better. I am sorry to say that I believe the second one more. If you were truly concerned for me and were praying for me, why would you feel the need to post that on the DA? Also, I know this is insulting, but I feel you often have the attitude that you are better than others. I am sorry if I have hurt you but as you and others have stated, I am direct. I am also an atheist. I do not have your spiritual views. Not to be rude or to belittle you religious beliefs, but I do not want nor do I need your prayers if they are even out of good. Why waste your prayers on me. I don't need them. That whole statement that you have discussed this with Madeline and have decided *all* you can really do is pray for me has such a "holier-than-thou" feel and that is rather insulting. I don't know if that was your intention but that is the meaning.
Well, that is about it. I have a developmental bio. exam on Friday and I am about to die. I am so stressed out about this exam that I can't see straight. Next week I will be posting as usual, so sorry this week was so strange.
Oh, great news! Mandy and I got A's on our biochem test!
Take care y'all. Later.
Caitlyn
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