Caitlyn Boyd
December 11, 1996
Hey everyone- how are y'all doing. First, for all of you who have been
writing me recently, since it is the middle of exams, I really don't
have much time. Hence, I have written any of you. I know, I suck but I
am soooo stressed. I was supposed to have five exams this week but I had
my Anatomy exam moved so at least I only have four. On Monday I had a
paper due in my Japanese Society class- I wrote on the elementary
education system in Japan. The paper had to be 10 pages and I was really
worried that I wouldn't be able to make that. I shouldn't have worried
because guess how long my paper was- 25 frickin' pages. Who the heck
writes a paper that is that long? I don't know what kinds of drugs I was
on- I can't believe I actually had that much to say. I will be upset if
I don't get an A on that paper!
I just have to tell everyone this. Remember a while ago when I was
talking about the crisis my roommate was having? Well the same exact
thing happened to her best friend Andrea. I love Andrea, she is really
wonderful and I feel so awful that something like this happened to her.
Anyway, Andrea goes to Tech and she was totally in love with this boy for
a long time. He goes to grad school in another state but they were still
talking all the time. She finally got up the guts to tell him that she
loved him and he said he did too!!! I was so happy for her and she was
so excited about the prospect of a relationship with him. Then he calls
her three or four DAYS later and said "Get ready to leave all respect
for me." And then he tells her that he had sex with some girl that he
had hated before. What the f*ck is that?!?!!! Excuse my language, I have
gotten mad all over again. Lose all respect for him- damn right. How
could you not? Then he tells her that she needs to decide what she wants
to do. Decide what to do? He has already decided that for her. Andrea
found out that he was drunk and I guess she was considering forgiving
him. So she called and he tells her that he wants to start DATING this
whore. Poor Andrea. She is just dying right now but she doesn't have
time to let herself get upset because she has exams and the GREs. This
just makes me so angry. What the hell is wrong with these guys? I am not
going to male-bash or anything but I just DO NOT understand. I know not
every guy is like this but when I was talking to V-Chip he said
something that is so true. He said that these kinds of guys are what
give guys such a bad name. That 100 guys could be perfect but all that
girls are going to remember are these dogs. That is exactly right. What
in the world can these stupid jerks be thinking? GUY MINDSET: I am
really horny so what should I do? I guess I should go f*uck the first
girl that lets me! It doesn't matter that my girlfriend for 2 years
loves me and will be so hurt. I mean is that what guys are really
thinking. I am not perfect by any means and I have already said that I
have cheated on my boyfriends before but I have never slept with someone
else. And yes, I do see the difference. And I felt so guilty about
everything that happened. I was certainly not flippant about the whole
thing and just say "Guess what happened to me." It is like the Twilight
Zone around here. First Mandy and now Andrea. I mean who is next? I
hope not me. I don't think
Paul would do that to me but then again,
Mandy and Andrea didn't expect these guys to do that either. I didn't
for that matter either. Sorry to all you nice boys out there- I think I
am just a little anti-guy right now. Our room is so bitter right now- I
am bitter about Paul. Sometimes he is so wonderful and then other times
he would rather play his stupid frickin' video games. Pretty soon Mandy
and I will be able to write an Alanis song.
Something on a slightly brighter note is that
Kate announced that she
was moving out yesterday. I really don't feel anything. I got so used to
ignoring her that things probably won't be that different. But today, a
girl came looking at the room. She seems so nice, I really like her even
though I only talked to her for about 10 minutes. Kate was so bitchy to
her- that I don't understand. Kate is the rudest, most inconsiderate
person that I know- like we were supposed to cry when she told us she
was leaving. I am sure that none of us care. After our potential new
roommie met Kate she said, "That is the girl who is moving out isn't
it?" I guess it was that obvious. Anyway, now that I have complained the
entire time I am sure I will get mean mail;). I must go study or I will
die tomorrow. Take care and I'll talk to y'all later.
Caitlyn
cxboyd@maila.wm.edu
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