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Well, I'm in for another great weekend. Dana is coming to visit again and I can't believe how lucky I am. Two years ago, I promised myself I wouldn't get myself into another long distance relationship. I was raked over the coals by my ex, and the whole thing was...well, I'll be nice and call it "a valuable learning experience". I found myself lining myself up for another one back in May, and I was a little nervous. I have yet to regret the decision. I just hope that I don't have to fight with Erica over her time. It doesn't do any of us any good, especially Dana, caught in the middle. Erica and I don't actually argue over it: she just gets protective and possesive over her friends. I can't say that I blame her. She has great taste in friends. You all know who you are, you weasely bastards!
I had a serious talk with Caitlyn this afternoon, and I have some mixed feelings on the whole thing. She came to me and asked me why I didn't like her. To be honest, I hadn't realised that I was still acting like I have a problem with her. I haven't liked the way she has treated Paul at times, but I've always thought she was a basically fun, decent person. It was just that I have perceived her as being on Paul's case almost to the point of nagging. The conversation today made me realise that my view has a double bias. The first is that I'm usually only getting Paul's side. The second is that my own experiences have made me really critical of the way that she does things...or at least as I perceive them.
On the negative side, I'm worried that I have been seeing things right all the way along. Regardless, I have to recognize that even if he is my little brother, Paul is fallible and I need to remember that there is another side to everything. If I have been treating her like I dislike her, then I need to store that shit. I just don't dig on a lot of the things that she's done.
Now if I can just learn to stay out of their business...
We had four alums in town this past weekend. Ed and Mike stayed with me, while Greg and Craig stayed with Jack and Paul. Much drinking was had by all. Paul paced himself on his birthday too well for a lot of people. His 21st birthday, after never drinking, and the dumbass doesn't even really pass a real mild drunkenness. Oh well. I was proud of the control, although I agree that it may have been due to his "excessive" need to stay in control. Admirable, but frustrating when your trying to fuck him up. Ed and I came back to the room that night only to have Mike disappear and not return until 10am the next morning. In addition, Sean and Maria stood out in the dorm lobby and argued until at least 4am (when I fell asleep) so loud that we could hear it in the room. I like 'em both, but..fairy tale, my ass.
I need new music. I'm going into withdrawl. I still haven't gotten together with the band.
Bill
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